Forgive & Forget?

Happy Sunday Afternoon....

After a scrumptiuos breakfast this morning, alone, mind you, I took time to blog hop. I came across this article from a newly found friend. She published some comments from her blog that to me are a bit too much. Why must people like to judge who we are based on our writings? Isnt this space is where you expressed yourself freely without being judged? If you dont like, why must you read the blog anyway? As for me, I dont frequent blogs that I dont like. I only read blogs that I enjoy especially reading based on the owner's everyday life (without the sumpah seranah or berlagak tayang bags, cars, etc!), recipes and tips on how to become a better person.

Before I start my blog pun, I am tired with all the gossips about me either in my office or in my family. But I dont give a damn! Some are true with a little add of spice here and there to make the story juicier and some are only hearsay. To me personally, you should be brave enough to ask me in face it it is true or not rather than just passing the gossip around town.

I am told by a good friend that I should just letgo, forgive and forget.... but can we? when what was circulated touches our dignity? Over time, I am beginning to learn to control my temper and hold back on words that cuts through your heart. Yes, it hurts soo much, especially when the person you trust with your life and love them dearly stab you behind your back and snub you but I always believe that what goes around comes around.

I can forgive but I cannot forget, afterall I am only human....

To Nani, just hang on there, you cant please everyone.

A New Beginning and a New Era..

Awaiting to enter a new phase in my life.... hoping for the best and hopefully my dream will become a reality...

Sick as a Cow!

Yup! Sick as a cow. My right hand is giving me the problem since last December and I really dont know what is wrong with it. The doctor said it is because my soft tissue has a tear due to heaving lifting. What heavy lifting? All I did was mopping, sweeping and a bit of dusting here and there. Could that be the problem? So that concludes that will not lift a finger to do housechores anymore. So, who gets to do it? A question remains unanswered.

Anyway, a good samaritan came by 2 weeks ago, decided to do a little bit of house cleaning while I lounged on the sofa and watched tv. Hahahaa... good for her. She has been nagging me to go to a hospital to have my hand checked but I just brushed her off. I told her that I will change my EPF nomination to her name if she continue to do the housechores every week for me but she dont find it funny though. Huh, party pooper!

This last weekend, she dragged me to sleep over at her house as she need help to pack as she is moving house in a few months time. Due to my inability to do anything heavy with my hand, so I only cut out the masking tape and make out the boxes for her. While she was busy packing her stuff away, I was under the cool aircond, sleeping away. Hahahaa... and she is definitely not happy about it. Too bad, I told her! By the time I woke up, she was also asleep on the floor amidst the boxes, masking tapes and her collection of jewelleries. It was indeed a funny sight!

By late evening, I took the pain reducing pills as I could not stand it any longer and drag my feet home. It was indeed painful driving and I tried not holding the steering too tightly on my right hand. It was a miracle as there was not many vehicles on the road and I reached home in a cool half an hour.

All the buzz about packing and moving also effected me and got me thinking. Should I move out too? Hmmm, something to ponder on for the next few weeks. But I already make a pact with me that if ever I move out, it must be to a better place!

Oucch.. typing this also hurts so much... aaarghhh... when can this go away?

Another Emotional Day ...

Nothing much to update. Again, while bloghopping, came across this phrase.

Quote:

"Apabila engkau tidak dapat melihat kepada masa depanmu.kerana masa depanmu itu masih gelap,dan engkau tidak pula dapat menoleh kepada masamu yang telah tinggal di belakang kerana semuanya peristiwa yang pahit dan getir,maka cubalah angkat kepalamu ke atas,nanti engkau akan beroleh istirehat dan ketenangan..." Unquote.

Yeap, gonna do that... in the meantime, the river flows again, and it's raining out there. Not helping :(

Why Emotional?

Dah lama tak update blog sebab tak tau nak tulis apa. There are a lot of things in my mind but everytime when I sat in front of the computer, I just sat there and not able to compose anything. I think this is what they called writer's block.. hahhaaa.. Anyway, these few days I am feeling very down, dont know why, and not helping though, when I surfed the internet, I chance upon a blog and upon reading it make me cried non stop. There a lot of stuff in there that hit the spot. The blog owner really write deep down from her heart and I really envy how she writes.

Quoting her :

Bagi yang sudah tercebur ke alam rumahtangga bersama pasangan yang tidak seperti di harapkan. Kesabaran dan daya ketahanan perlu ada. Insyallah asalkan anda kuat bertahan, itulah jodoh anda sampai mati.

Bukankah kita berhak untuk menikmati kebahagiaan hidup yang sebentar ini di atas mukabumi ciptaan Allah ini? Jadi mengapa harus kita bebankan hidup berhadapan dengan pasangan yang menyakitkan jiwa dan perasaan. Carilah kebahagiaan itu. Dia pasti ada untuk kita.

Well, there, isnt that beautiful? I rest my case.

Goodnite.

Hari Ini Hari Sabtu

Hari Sabtu. Nak buat apa ya? Hmmm.. En MHM kata nak bawa saya round round jalan2 makan angin sambil cari makan. Ini mesti rasa guilty karana sudah 3 hujung minggu yang berturut2 tidak meluangkan masa bersama saya. Arrggghhh.... dan pagi2 lagi, kakak saya dah telefon nak datang melawat saya. Apa motif? saya pun tak tau. Nak kata datang hari raya, raya baru je lepas. Oh.... tidak! Jadi haruskah saya menghilangkan diri pada hari ini? Nampak gayanye, niat murni saya untuk lipat baju, gosok, baju & gantung baju itu rasanya akan terbengkalai buat masa kini. Tapi, apa kata saya upah kakak saya itu untuk melipat & menggosok baju saya? Kah, kah , kah. Ya, betul tuan2 & puan2 semua, saya sememangnye bukan calon suri rumahtangga yang mithali.

Take it or leave it.

Saya terpaksa meyapu & mengemob lantai... aduhhhhh

Kenapalah aku bukan Domestic Goddess?

Hari ini hari yang malas bagi saya. Malas mandi, malas nak keluar, malas makan dan malas yang paling dahsyat sekali ialah .......... malas nak lipat baju. Kesemua baju2 saya, dilonggokkan diatas katil and atas ironing board. Tiap2 kali masuk bilik tu, sakit je mata tengok camtu, tapi perasaan malas mengatasi segala2nye. Lipat & iron baju adalah perkara yang paling dimencik dalam dunia ini.

Errr, camne nie? Apakah cara nak motivate diri ini? En MHM pernah opper nak lipat tapi saya dengan sombongnye kata tak payahlah, kan sendiri dah susah? Saya pernah ketawakan dia, sebab tak boleh bayangkan, dia duduk bersila dengan sebumbung baju2 itu untuk dilipat atau digantung. Bila lalu kat bilik tu, I just jeling2 je kat baju tu, buat2 tak nampak. Tak nampak tak sakit hati kan? So, untuk hari sabtu & ahad ini saya akan berazam untuk meng"clear"kan baju2 itu.

Morale of the story ialah, saya bukan Domestic Goddess. Kenapa yek?

Stalker, Celebritykah Aku?

Last nite, I posted on my FB wall that my cafe will be opening real soon. Orang yang biasa main game kat FB taulah that it is a virtual game. However, I got a reply from a friend's SIL asking when is the opening and where is the cafe. I was rolling with laughter when I saw the comment. Nevertheless, I replied, wait and see and watchout for my page.

I also just found out that my friend nie, lets call her Mrs P (as in perasan) yang I tak bersua muka, hanya SMS yang pendek, sahaja has been stalking my FB everyday, going in to check on my status & activities. I got to know pun from another friend Mrs L (as in mulut laser). Actually, I SMS Mrs P yesterday and told her if she is free this week, we could meet as it has been a long time since we hook up. But, being Mrs P yang selalu perasan, she called up Mrs L and asked whether I send the same message to Mrs L. Mrs P pun go on and on to Mrs L that I have been very busy with outside activities (berdasarkan gambar2 yang diupload di FB) and boleh chat with other people in FB tapi tak nak accept call Mrs P or call her to gossip2. After Mrs P letak telefon, Mrs L pun call lah, update about how Mrs P stalk my FB page and we laugh2.

Actually, both me & Mrs L, decided not to call or jumpa Mrs P due to an incident which really hurt us both. We wanted to teach her a lesson. She thinks just because she has a title, rich, beautiful, she has a right to do everything and dont owe no one of her apology. And when she has a problem, she expects everyone to be at her side within a split second. One or twice or tiga kali tu, okaylah, tapi bila she moan about benda yang sama everytime, how her husband dont love her, husband cari lain, husband tak layan her nicely, kita pun naik bosan. We always told her, be stronger la, if your husband buat pasal once or twice takpelah, ni tak, the last I know, was kali berpuloh2. So, kalau korang kena kat tempat kitaorang tension tak? We advised her, as long as he gives you money, tak pukol sampai lebam2 and she gets to do whatever she wants or gets to go wherever, so be it lah kalau dia nak menggatal pun. Kalau dah masuk berpuloh kali tu, semua orang tak dah boleh tolong, itu dah category gatal mengenyam. Tapi dia tak puas hati, she expects her husband to timang2 dia everyday, comment on how beaufiful she is EVERYDAY, SMS dia dengan pujuk rayu bagai. Tang SMS tu, it is a known fact that she is jealous of my relationship with En MHM. I told her, kitaorang sedang memadu asmara, memang lah SMS memanjang, ko tu dah kawin 30 tahun. But no, she said, her husband should do the same as it will semarakan kasih sayang antara dia laki bini. Lantak ko lah.

Entahlah, dont know what to say or how to help her anymore, kalau dah berumur cam tu camne la nak berubah lagi. Sudah2 lah tu buat perangai. We could only pray that she will change for the better.

Aku, Supir Terhormat

After quiting my job in June, my sister really took me for granted. Suka suka dia aje call me and asked me to drive her around town to do her errands, of course with her on tow plus her twin grandchildren. Actually I dont mind, but the thought of receiving her call or SMS as early as 8am in morning and shouting, eh, tido lagi ke? bangun lah and bawa akak gi sini jap. Bukannye nak tanya aku ada hal ke hapa. Mentang2 lah aku dok umah, dia ingat aku tak de hal ke hapa?

Yang si twin dua ekor nie a bit scared of me coz I usually will talk garang2 with them and when we went out, my sister nie happy sebab they will listen to me and will not be grumpy. If I said duduk in the car, both will sit down quietly, which is very rare if they travel with their parents or with their granny, my sister.

Every week ada saja hal dia, be it siang or malam. Last 3 weeks, she asked me to send her to do some groceries shopping, then withdraw duit kat bank, then gi open house, and finally last week asked me to go the bank and withdraw her pension. Tapi rata2, errandnye gi bank or bayar bill. She will umpan me with, nanti lepas ni akak belanja makan and isi minyak keta ye. Hallo, aku bukannya nak upah bawa kakak aku buat errand, itu tolong saja, tapi berpada lah kak oi! Ini main sedap mulut dia and ikut time dia aje. So last Friday, I said, aku ada hal tak leh pergi, kita gi Monday lah ya. Manalah aku tau, Monday pepagi dia dah SMS ingatkan aku & menuntut janjinye. So off I went and sent her to the bank nearby her hourse, and I warned her that I could not take her anywhere else coz I ada hal and guess what, she sulk, sulk, hokay! I pretend I did not see that and asked her, ah, mana lagi nak pergi nie, last kopek, pas tu boleh hantar balik masuk kandang dua ekor budak nie. She wanted to do groceries shopping (tak faham lah aku, tiap2 minggu ada aje dia nak beli barang, kan senang beli once a month!) and I sent her to the nearby supermarket and waited in the car with the children. Dah habis beli barang, she said she suddenly remembered kena bayar TNB bill (aku dah hangin nie) and trying very much to control my temper, I said ok lah kita gi TM and bayar bill. Actually, I have promised to meet up with a friend to accompany her to hantar her brother tukar dressing luka due to an accident. My friend called me at about 1.30pm and since I have not finished with "orang tua leha" (OTL) that is our nickname for her, my friend said, we go separate way la. I felt bad for her but OTL errand tak habis lagi. Dah la que kat dalam tu panjang, oohhh tensionnye aku!

OTL offered to buy me lunch, I said no need lah as I thought I could catch up with my friend and meet up with her somewhere else. Suddenly, En MHM called and asked me to drive him to the workshop and check on his car due to an accident (refer earlier posting related to this). Hmmm, kena jadi supir lagik, tapi ini I ambil upah, I told En MHM, belanja I makan dulu since I belum lunch, tapi lunch venue pilihan En MHM, bukan pilihan supir, aduhai, apalah nasib ku! Susah gak ya jadi supir nie...

Things that make me GRRRRR.......

• Mothers who talk to their children, in English, slang lagi, in the toilets while glancing at us who are lining up to use the toilet. Wei, tau lah ko pakai branded head to toe but to attract attention in the toilet.. huh, please lah... menyampah tau.
• Fast food counter staff taking order but at the same time, bercakap ngan kawan2 nun di belakang. Kok ye pun, amik la order akak nie, baru lah bersongeh ngan kawan2 kau tu. Kang salah amik order, ko juga yang masam muka, macam aku tak tau order..
• Orang yang line up kat express lane in supermarket tapi barang2 dalam trolley penuh cam nak muntah.. Tak tau baca ke.. EXPRESS LANE; LESS THAN 10 ITEMS. Pas tu bila kena tegur ngan cashier, buat2 cakap, eh ye ke? tak pe lah, scan je lah, saya nak cepat. Oh, kitaorang kang belakang nie suka2 la berdiri lelama ya?
• Orang yang suka pandang kita atas/bawah dalam lift; checking out apa handbag kita bawa, kasut apa kita pakai.. Kak, tak salah nak check out apa aku pakai, tapi berpada pada lah pandang. Ini tak, cam aku ada diease. At one time, aku terus tegur, do you have a problem with me? Terus dia malu2 and answer, tak le, I like the colour of your blouse, unique..
• Akak bertudung yang pandang aku hisap rokok cam aku hisap dadah! Agaknye teringin kot, mehlah, jom join akak..
• Pompuan2 melayu berpakaian separuh bogel yang berjalan berpimpin tangan ngan jantan mat salleh and pandang2 kat sekeliling to see who are checking them out.. hallo..... tak heran lah..
• Kengkawan yang suka missed call.. oh, so, aku tak payah bayar bill la?
• Orang yang suka perasan dia betul, kaya & hidup berlandaskan ugama.. and their life is perfect. Ye ke perfect? Pada aku, cam ada yang tak kena je. Jangan lah sombong sangat, kalau ko ingat kau je betul and orang semua ada conspiracy & dengki kat ko, resign je, duduk kat umah.
• Ask me questions like, you are not lonely ke, kesian ko, duduk sensorang. My answer is truthfully, I AM NOT LONELY, aku ada banyak activities, and kalau tidak pun aku golek2 kat umah, tengok TV, my favourite pastime. To this pun orang tak percaya.. hah, suka hati korang lah..
• Orang yang line up kat fast food counter, tapi bila sampai their turn, baru nak berkial2 pikir nak order apa, hey, yang ko berdiri setengah jam mengadap menu yang terpampang tu apa? and bila nak bayar, baru terkorek2 purse dalam handbag.... aku boleh hangin satu badan kalau tengok minah cam nie...
• Orang yang pergi hypermarket/supermarket & angkut one whole family eg. atuk, nenek, orang gaji, anak berderet2. Kita nak lalu kat aisle pun tak boleh, sebab diaorang sebuk bermesyuarat nak beli 1 tin sardin cam nak beli banglo sebijik.
• Orang yang bawa anak kat public places, pastu biarkan diaorang berlari2 cam kambing baru lepas kandang, without supervision. Kang kena kidnap baru nak keluar paper, nangis2.
• Front liners yang layan customers dengan muka masam. Kak/bang, kalau tak suka keja jadi front liner, gi lah tukar keja tempat lain. Nie tak, kita je yang tersengih2 cam kerang busuk.
• Some of my friends yang bila gi restaurants, when ordering their food, talk half heartedly to the waiters/waitresses. Bila food datang, she realised yang this is not what they ordered and cari gaduh. Lain kali, bila nak order, tengok muka order taker tu, kan senang. Hina sangat ke tengok muka orang tu?
• Last but not least, darling aku tak sms or call for the whole day sebab dia buzzzyyyy... arrggggg..... ggrrrrrrrr.. dont want to fren you...